A couple of my good friends are supposed to come spend the night tonight. This will be the first time they've been to our new house, or met our fur kids. For some reason, I am terribly nervous.
I've been cleaning all afternoon. In spurts. I will work on a task, finish it, and then hop back on the laptop for a little while. It keeps me from getting too burned out on cleaning. I was supposed to call around to some local business today and see if anyone was hiring, but I didn't. And of course, I feel guilty for that. I know that it would really help DH out if we had just a little extra money coming in each month, especially after our move. We're still hurting a little from all the deposits we had to put down. It sucks being in such a small town. There are so many less places to look for jobs. There's no mall, no shopping center, just a bunch of boutiques and a Wal-Mart. (And I'm sorry, but I can't bring myself to work at Wal-Mart.) Hopefully I'll find the motivation soon, and the location. Sometimes I love being in a small town, and sometimes, I wonder why we did this.
I'm starting to really feel a little stressed out lately. We're on cycle 5, low on money, and DH is wanting to move to a new church. I've visited there a couple times, and it's a small, country, really nice little place. But I am really hesitant to leave the congregation where we attend now. It feels like home to me. It's where all my friends are, and it's the entire reason we moved back to Bowling Green instead of to a bigger city with more opportunities. I feel like it's going to be a really hard decision for me, but DH seems ready and rarin' to go. Sigh. Being a grown-up sucks sometimes.
June 30, 2011
June 24, 2011
Friday, Friday, gotta get down on Friday!
Well, cycle 4 was a bust. AF arrived on Thursday, rather unexpectedly. My temps were all over the place this cycle, so I didn't know quite when that would happen. Oh, well. It was really disappointing, but maybe cycle 5 will be our lucky cycle. I'm still struggling with the disillusionment that goes along with not getting pregnant quickly, but I'm getting resigned to it.
DH and I are headed to Louisville this weekend to visit his parents. On Saturday, I'm meeting up with some of my Bump ladies for a get-together. I got to meet a few at a TN gtg, so I'm expanding my group. :) I'm really excited, but also totally over-analyzing. What am I going to wear? What if they don't like me? What if they think I'm ugly? Sometimes, I think I'm still 14 years old inside.
This will be the first time we've left the cats alone for more than a few hours. It should be really interesting. I'm hoping they don't freak out and tear things up, or stand at the door meowing for hours. Suki is particularly bad about that...if we go into the bedroom and shut the door, she sometimes will come and cry for several minutes until we either let her in, or she gets tired. She hasn't been as bad about it for the last few days, so I'm hoping she's getting desensitized. We might leave the TV on or something so that there's noise to keep them company. Eek.
I'm excited for dinner tonight. We have leftovers of what I cooked last night. It was originally a stuffed bell pepper recipe, but this time, I just cut up some bell pepper and added it to the stuffing. We ate it wrapped up in tortillas. So delicious. It's ground beef, onion, rice, garlic, cumin, and chili powder. (And for me, red bell pepper.) I was excited that DH liked it so much...proof that I can sneak veggies into his food somehow. Well, it wasn't really sneaking. He knew it was in there and liked it anyhow. Good stuff. :)
Happy Friday! Enjoy your weekend.
DH and I are headed to Louisville this weekend to visit his parents. On Saturday, I'm meeting up with some of my Bump ladies for a get-together. I got to meet a few at a TN gtg, so I'm expanding my group. :) I'm really excited, but also totally over-analyzing. What am I going to wear? What if they don't like me? What if they think I'm ugly? Sometimes, I think I'm still 14 years old inside.
This will be the first time we've left the cats alone for more than a few hours. It should be really interesting. I'm hoping they don't freak out and tear things up, or stand at the door meowing for hours. Suki is particularly bad about that...if we go into the bedroom and shut the door, she sometimes will come and cry for several minutes until we either let her in, or she gets tired. She hasn't been as bad about it for the last few days, so I'm hoping she's getting desensitized. We might leave the TV on or something so that there's noise to keep them company. Eek.
I'm excited for dinner tonight. We have leftovers of what I cooked last night. It was originally a stuffed bell pepper recipe, but this time, I just cut up some bell pepper and added it to the stuffing. We ate it wrapped up in tortillas. So delicious. It's ground beef, onion, rice, garlic, cumin, and chili powder. (And for me, red bell pepper.) I was excited that DH liked it so much...proof that I can sneak veggies into his food somehow. Well, it wasn't really sneaking. He knew it was in there and liked it anyhow. Good stuff. :)
Happy Friday! Enjoy your weekend.
June 20, 2011
Photo update of my fur children!
I figured it was time for a photo update. Here's the fur kiddos...grey is Pippa, multi-colored is Suki. (Nerd points to whoever can name the animated series that the name Suki came from.)
They have really been a lot of fun so far, although definitely more work than I expected them to be. Suki will sit at the bedroom door and cry for several minutes if you don't let her in, which takes some serious tolerance. But I love them to bits, and I'm so glad we got them. They're good company.
New washer and dryer get here tomorrow.
Tomorrow is also the Summer Solstice. The sun will be at its highest point at 12:16pm. (Central time.)
Tomorrow is also my 22nd birthday. Happy birthday to me.
They have really been a lot of fun so far, although definitely more work than I expected them to be. Suki will sit at the bedroom door and cry for several minutes if you don't let her in, which takes some serious tolerance. But I love them to bits, and I'm so glad we got them. They're good company.
New washer and dryer get here tomorrow.
Tomorrow is also the Summer Solstice. The sun will be at its highest point at 12:16pm. (Central time.)
Tomorrow is also my 22nd birthday. Happy birthday to me.
June 18, 2011
Butt whupping, via phantom symptoms.
Today has been surprisingly rough. This 2WW has been really kind to me, up until now. I guess this is payback for a few days of relative ease. For the last few days, I've had a lot of cramping on the lower left. Mild, slightly pinchy, but nothing too bad. But today, it morphed into something a little more agressive. It switched to both sides, and is a deeper, duller pain. I also started having tons of nausea today, which isn't unheard of for me in the 2WW. But this is a bit more potent than normal. I've been tired, a little cranky, and I think I have a sinus/ear infection starting. (Also all new today.) I'm hoping that these things end up being something good, but right now, I'm just uncomfortable. I'm debating testing in the morning. It'd be so exciting to get a BFP on Fathers' Day, but also incredibly disappointing to get a BFN. We'll see how my temps are in the morning and go from there.
DH and I are finally, finally going to get a washer and dryer! His grandmother decided that she'll buy both the washer and dryer for us, and we'll pay her back for the dryer. The set will be delivered and installed on Tuesday...which is my birthday. Happy birthday to me! I've wanted my own washer and dryer for a really, really long time, and these are so nice. (They're definitely mid-range, not the most fancy stuff, but they're a lot nicer than I expected to get.) Very much a blessing!
Happy Fathers' Day, y'all. Hope you have a father (or father figure) to celebrate! Mine's my FIL...he made waiting 20 years for a dad totally worth it.
DH and I are finally, finally going to get a washer and dryer! His grandmother decided that she'll buy both the washer and dryer for us, and we'll pay her back for the dryer. The set will be delivered and installed on Tuesday...which is my birthday. Happy birthday to me! I've wanted my own washer and dryer for a really, really long time, and these are so nice. (They're definitely mid-range, not the most fancy stuff, but they're a lot nicer than I expected to get.) Very much a blessing!
Happy Fathers' Day, y'all. Hope you have a father (or father figure) to celebrate! Mine's my FIL...he made waiting 20 years for a dad totally worth it.
June 14, 2011
Grumpty grump.
So yesterday was my 2-year anniversary with DH. We had a fantastic day. He took me rock climbing in Nashville, which was tons of fun even though it was my first time. I'm not even really sore today, which makes me feel kinda boss. (Ok, my hands and fore-arms are kind of sore. But not much.) After rock climbing, we went to good ol' Cracker Barrel for lunch, and then back to BG. We did the final walkthrough at our old apartment, and finally closed our lease. We're officially outta there! And then, we went to the Humane Society to pick up our two new furbabies.
They are turning out to be a lot more to deal with than I expected. I grew up with cats, and I don't remember it being this big of a deal. Maybe I'm just looking at the past through rose colored glasses. Anyhow, the cats have this knack for being spazzed out at all the worst times. When we went to bed last night, they meekly curled up with us. Slept great for a few hours, but around 4a.m., they decided it was playtime. And by playtime, I mean freak-the-heck-out time. They were jumping all over our bed and tearing around the room, so we put them in the hall and shut our bedroom door. This lead to yowling and crying from both of them. We did not get much sleep. My temps were thrown off from having to get up. So now, FF moved my O date to CD28. I'm beyond frustrated today, not to mention tired from lack of sleep.
This cycle is already feeling like a bust, and I might only be like, 3dpo. I either want my BFP or I want it to be over so we can move on. On top of all of this, DH informed me today that I need to start looking for a job. Student loans are hitting and they're taking a lot of money. I know I shouldn't be so bitter about trying to find a job, but I hate people and I hate standing for a long time. I have crappy knees and hips, and it gets so painful. Sigh. Today is my grump day, I guess.
This too shall pass.
They are turning out to be a lot more to deal with than I expected. I grew up with cats, and I don't remember it being this big of a deal. Maybe I'm just looking at the past through rose colored glasses. Anyhow, the cats have this knack for being spazzed out at all the worst times. When we went to bed last night, they meekly curled up with us. Slept great for a few hours, but around 4a.m., they decided it was playtime. And by playtime, I mean freak-the-heck-out time. They were jumping all over our bed and tearing around the room, so we put them in the hall and shut our bedroom door. This lead to yowling and crying from both of them. We did not get much sleep. My temps were thrown off from having to get up. So now, FF moved my O date to CD28. I'm beyond frustrated today, not to mention tired from lack of sleep.
This cycle is already feeling like a bust, and I might only be like, 3dpo. I either want my BFP or I want it to be over so we can move on. On top of all of this, DH informed me today that I need to start looking for a job. Student loans are hitting and they're taking a lot of money. I know I shouldn't be so bitter about trying to find a job, but I hate people and I hate standing for a long time. I have crappy knees and hips, and it gets so painful. Sigh. Today is my grump day, I guess.
This too shall pass.
June 9, 2011
An Open Letter to my chart.
Dear Chart,
You and I normally get along quite well. You make me feel informed. Educated. In the loop. We've had this relationship for a couple months now, and I really thought I knew what to expect from you.
And then you go and screw it all up.
I know what you'd say, Chart. (If you could talk, that is.) You'd say "Hey, don't blame me. I'm just a manifestation of the data you enter in to my columns." But I do blame you, Chart. And right now, I might even hate you a little bit.
You're ugly. I hate your up-and-down, mountain-range lines. I hate your lack of confirmed O. I hate your blue dots and your stupid blue connecting lines. I hate your little colored squares that I use to keep track of symptoms. Because even though I've had all the right symptoms, you still refuse to give me the one thing I love about you - crosshairs. You're kind of a turd this cycle, Chart.
Deep down, I know that it's me, not you. But until you start behaving normally, like a good, sane Chart, I'm afraid that our relationship is going to be a bit strained. You've left me with no other choice than to look upon you with utter disdain. (Literally and metaphorically.) I'll forgive you in time, I'm sure...but I won't forget this. I'm watching you, Chart. Like a hawk.
You and I normally get along quite well. You make me feel informed. Educated. In the loop. We've had this relationship for a couple months now, and I really thought I knew what to expect from you.
And then you go and screw it all up.
I know what you'd say, Chart. (If you could talk, that is.) You'd say "Hey, don't blame me. I'm just a manifestation of the data you enter in to my columns." But I do blame you, Chart. And right now, I might even hate you a little bit.
You're ugly. I hate your up-and-down, mountain-range lines. I hate your lack of confirmed O. I hate your blue dots and your stupid blue connecting lines. I hate your little colored squares that I use to keep track of symptoms. Because even though I've had all the right symptoms, you still refuse to give me the one thing I love about you - crosshairs. You're kind of a turd this cycle, Chart.
Deep down, I know that it's me, not you. But until you start behaving normally, like a good, sane Chart, I'm afraid that our relationship is going to be a bit strained. You've left me with no other choice than to look upon you with utter disdain. (Literally and metaphorically.) I'll forgive you in time, I'm sure...but I won't forget this. I'm watching you, Chart. Like a hawk.
June 2, 2011
On the move! (Literally and metaphorically. I'm so deep.)
Things are (still) going well here in BG. But soon, they'll be going well in Franklin, KY. Because we're moving there. Jesse and I had been looking for some more permanent housing, and we wanted to move a bit more south. He has better job opportunities in TN, so Franklin would allow us to live in KY while he commuted to TN, if need be. We found an awesome duplex that has two bedrooms, two full bathrooms, washer/dryer hookups, and great storage space. They'll allow us to paint and have pets, for no extra deposit, which is unheard of. It's actually going to be cheaper rent than where we live now. (Not going to lie, a big part of me thinks the best part is the washer and dryer. Cloth diapers ftw!) And yes, we'll still be going to the same congregation. I think we'd be willing to commute quite a long way to worship there.
On Memorial Day, Jesse and I went on a 3-mile hike with my friend Kristin and her husband Aarron, and their little kiddos Emma and Tate. It was a lot of fun! Kristin is one of those people that I instantly bonded with when I met her. We got to chat a lot on the hike, and I had a lot of fun. It was nice to get some exercise while we were away from the gym. Jesse and I have been going to the gym pretty often the last week. (Well, he goes to the gym more than I do, because I have yoga.) It feels good to know that I'm finally doing something about the weight I've gained, instead of just complaining about it and feeling jiggly. Unfortunately, my yoga membership is almost over. (Today is the last day.) I'll miss it a lot, but I think it gave me the motivation to get to the gym, so it was totally worth it. Yoga is just too expensive to keep going every month.
Jesse and I have decided that I get to be a stay-at-home-wife for a little while longer. I'm going to start couponing some and try to save us as much money on groceries as possible. It's pointless to get a job right now when we're going to move, but hopefully we'll be fine without me having a job, anyhow. It's been working out totally fine with just his income, so for the time being, I get to live my dream job. :)
Other than moving and TTC, there isn't a lot going on in our lives. (Or at least, not anything else I'll talk about on Pleonast.) We are incredibly blessed, and it just keeps gettin' better. I get in a "mood" sometimes, but when it comes down to it, I can only do so much for TTGP. The rest is up to luck and God.
On Memorial Day, Jesse and I went on a 3-mile hike with my friend Kristin and her husband Aarron, and their little kiddos Emma and Tate. It was a lot of fun! Kristin is one of those people that I instantly bonded with when I met her. We got to chat a lot on the hike, and I had a lot of fun. It was nice to get some exercise while we were away from the gym. Jesse and I have been going to the gym pretty often the last week. (Well, he goes to the gym more than I do, because I have yoga.) It feels good to know that I'm finally doing something about the weight I've gained, instead of just complaining about it and feeling jiggly. Unfortunately, my yoga membership is almost over. (Today is the last day.) I'll miss it a lot, but I think it gave me the motivation to get to the gym, so it was totally worth it. Yoga is just too expensive to keep going every month.
Jesse and I have decided that I get to be a stay-at-home-wife for a little while longer. I'm going to start couponing some and try to save us as much money on groceries as possible. It's pointless to get a job right now when we're going to move, but hopefully we'll be fine without me having a job, anyhow. It's been working out totally fine with just his income, so for the time being, I get to live my dream job. :)
Other than moving and TTC, there isn't a lot going on in our lives. (Or at least, not anything else I'll talk about on Pleonast.) We are incredibly blessed, and it just keeps gettin' better. I get in a "mood" sometimes, but when it comes down to it, I can only do so much for TTGP. The rest is up to luck and God.
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